The Decision!!!

No pictures this time around just words! As far as what decision I'm referring to it's about how on earth we are going to get this baby out! We went to the Dr. on Tuesday like always and like always there is a whole lot of nothing going on. Once again I was dilated to a 1 and that was it, she could hardly even feel her head so we had to make up our minds of what we were going to do. Luckily we had already decided because I had a feeling nothing was going to happen. Last Tuesday after our Dr. appointment I basically cried all the way home because I knew pretty much my biggest fear was going to become a reality. I've been very vocal about not wanting another c-section unless it was absolutely the only thing that could be done. But turns out this baby is only going to come out that way. The reason that I'm not dilating is because she is not dropping which means that she is not pushing on my cervix at all. She is really high up in my rib cage! Now I do have the option to push, but if I did I would be having another long hard labor which could ultimately result in a c-section anyway. I've done the long labors and I'm not a fan! So last week I sat in the car in front of Richard's parents house and just cried because deep down I knew what I had to do. Luckily for me I have pretty much the best husband in the world who just let me sit there and cry and helped me decide what was going to be best. So by the time that I went to the Dr. this week I was prepared and I feel really good at what I'm about to do to myself! So tomorrow Friday the 13th we will be going in bright and early to have a c-section and to meet our beautiful baby girl! Richard keeps counting down the hours and I'm just trying not to think about it that much so I don't freak myself out! I'm nervous because of what happened last time but I feel better about it then I have for the past couple of weeks. I'm trying to have a positive out look on the whole thing. I know that I couldn't do this without Richard and he has been great at helping me see the good in this situation that I never wanted to face again. I know that he will be with me through the whole thing and that makes me feel better, because seriously I don't know what I would do without him! Both of the boys are super excited for Harper to get here and they keep talking about how they can't wait to come and see her. Trey wakes up every morning and says I can't wait for Friday and then Jack chimes in with a "ME TOOOOO!" They are going to be great big brothers! So we will continue to count down the hours to when we meet Harper Ella Davidson!!!!